20050824

walao ,i think im falling into this endless abyss ,already .

not only have i gotten Cs ,Ds ,and Es for my subjects ,but i am just totally lost .like ,i have no purpose or aim for anything okay .and i cant just 'go pray' or 'go to GOD' or something ,i just cant do that either .i like ,have this seriously bad attitude ,which is DANG vulgar and heckcare-ish .

seriously ,i need help ,i know the exams are about five weeks away and im FAILING EVERYTHING ,but somehow i just feel lost and i dont care whatever happens at all lah .

i dont want to fail ,do i ?

pleasepleaseplease , i need help !

i have NO motivation to work hard lah ,NONE at all .

i hate triple science ,i am totally withering here lah ,i cant stand triple science ,please send me to some lower stream where i can cope ?

then my mother is probably going to get this heart attack when she sees my marks are worse than the double science people or something ,but really ,my mind is blank ,i cant think ,i just stare into space..

i really feel v. bad now lah ,i want to CRY or something .on the outside im like ,happy go lucky ?but then ,i actually feel very moody and depressed now ,and thats why i snapped in english class today and said THEWORD twice today .even poor lawrence got scared ,and i think my group was offended .sorry people ,i just-

just send me to IMH lah .

the only thing that cheered me up today was ____ _______ ____ ____ . ahah ,and that ___ ___ _ ______ _____ .

20050821

tried PQing today .darn .waited like - what .about an hour ,and couldnt get in .BAH ,lol ,i advanced a level though .

and yes ,im talking about a computer game .

my internet isnt working properly ,and neither is my brain ,lol.

20050820

"it is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities ."

so remember that .(:

20050819

I HATE TRIPLE SCIENCE
I HATE TRIPLE SCIENCE
I HATE TRIPLE SCIENCE
I HATE TRIPLE SCIENCE
I HATE TRIPLE SCIENCE
I HATE TRIPLE SCIENCE

YEAH ,triple science sucks .doesnt take a genius in the stream to know that .i wished i was in double science ,what an ASS i was to choose triple .lmao, just because some friends went to geog ,i chose geog .another stupid action - i prefer history or literature ,totally.

I MISS 2A like i miss my playstation 2 !

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last night he finally got it right
even losers can get lucky sometimes
all the freaks go on a winning streak
shout it all around the world cause the geeks get the girls

garh .just wanted to post the fairytale thing and im called down for dinner .lol ,fine ,im going down .*trips and falls down stairs*

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what a brilliant day it was today .

firstly ,i flunked the amads test - owing to the fact that i didnt know how to do a single question .yeah, check my paper when it comes back ,there are only three lines of working and the graph paper is freaked up.

nextly ,i just sat in that shoe-smelling air-conditioned room staring at the chemistry test, knowing how to only confidently do one freaking question .not my fault ,i wasnt present when she taught moles ,or whatever mammal its called.

THEN ,a really huge moodswing wave just hit ,like that .and owing to the other fact that i kept coughing and sniffing like an idiot today .yeah ,thats it .

*beep*

i wanted to share with you intelligent people out there about fairytales and such .not sure whether i want to do that now ,perhaps next time .